on-and-hakyeon:

i’m never good at explaining things, especially without repeating the same set of words, but n means so much to me for his kindness and selflessness

he’s so unbelievably confident in himself and he supports others with that same confidence and assuredness- he’s always supporting what others feel rather than trying to persuade them otherwise and is such a comforting presence even to us fans viewing a screen

you can tell how much he loves the members even when they get on his nerves or tease him (honestly i think he loves them MORE when they act like they don’t like him back)- his clinginess, affection, and determination to be affectionate is absolutely to be admired

he’s also very firm with what he wants without getting angry (asking for quiet, trying to get others to focus), even when anger is justified (when people are invasive or rude towards him or the others)

all leaders are different and they’re all caring and selfless in their own ways but n has such a standout personality to me- he’s so unique and really wants the best for the members

and just on his own, his dancing is so fluid and doesn’t adhere to how people assume men should dance if dancing is even a field people consider men welcome in (like the fish flop he did in the UDF performance, or even that entire performance? it’s my favorite one of his because the moves for the men and women are often the same! and that fish flop was so good im)

he’s incredibly graceful (the spins and flowy, floaty movements), powerful (in the way he walks like in the performance of ramalama), expressive (HIS FACE GOD  he knows just when to smile to be showy OR to intentionally be intimidating and creepy like in ramalama, again lol/all the hard expressions in scentist?? my god), and so knowledgeable about what he does

he’s one of the people that push me to be more honest about how i feel and to stick up for myself, in addition to driving me artistically out of my comfort zone- to intentionally be as i am and to never apologize for it