Temporary Shelter Chapter 6

Summary: The reunion chapter you’ve all been waiting for! 

“Oh. My God. This is the cutest thing I’ve ever seen in
my entire life. The absolute cutest. Nothing will ever top this.”

“Yes, hyung, we know, you’ve only said that thirty times
already.”

“And I will say it thirty times more, thank you! You’re
taking photos, right, Hyukkie?”

“You know it, hyung. Leo-hyung’s taking some, too, so
we’ll have backup just in case.”

“If you wake this boy up,” Hakyeon cuts in, cracking open
one bleary eye to glare at the four men crowded around his side of the couch, “you
are all dead men, and no one will ever find your bodies.”

All he gets in response are a round of knowing smirks,
snickers, and nudges, and he rolls his eyes, his fingers lightly running
through Jinjin’s tousled hair from where his head is still pillowed comfortably
in his lap. No respect, no respect in these brats at all. He then begins the
arduous process of extricating himself from the tangle of blankets, pillows,
and small rapper without waking him up. He somehow manages it, though not
without about four hundred pictures being snapped in the process (“I swear to
God, Han Sanghyuk, if you don’t stop cackling right now-”). Once he’s free, he quickly herds the rest of his
members out of the living area so they can all start getting ready for the day
as quietly as possible.

Sometime later, the smell of freshly brewed coffee
finally rouses Jinjin from slumber. The young rapper blinks sleepily at nothing
before a large yawn overtakes him, and he stretches luxuriously, only to
immediately regret it when his entire body twinges irritably at him. A brief
glance out the living room window shows that the day has dawned bright and
clear without a cloud in the sky. Wincing, he sits up slowly, stiffly, about to
call out for N, when the front door opens.

“Guys!” a deep voice calls out. “Did I miss our guest? I
got here as fast as I could, traffic was terrible, and- oh, hello!” None other
than VIXX’s Ravi pops his head in, catching sight of a tousled, groggy,
bandaged boy staring back at him like a deer in the headlights from the couch,
still holding a stuffed cartoon deer. The sudden appearance of the other rapper
wakes Jinjin the rest of the way up in a hurry, and he sketches a quick little
bow as best he can from his sitting position.

“Hello, sunbae-nim,” Jinjin replies, combing his fingers
through his hair to try to tidy up his rat’s nest while making what’s hopefully
not a complete mess of an introduction. “Sorry for my appearance, I wasn’t
expecting-”

“Relax, kid, it’s fine,” Ravi says, chuckling, the sound
rich and resonant. “It’s nice to meet you. Heard you had a bit of a rough time
yesterday, but you seem to be feeling better.”

“Yes, N-hyung and the others have been taking very good
care of me,” Jinjin replies, relieved that Ravi seems to know what’s going on
already. “Thank you for your concern, sunbae.”

“I’m glad to hear that.” Ravi enters, kicking off his shoes.
A white pug follows closely on his heels, and Jinjin can’t help the thrilled
gasp that escapes him at the sight of it. The dog quickly notices the newcomer
and trots over to investigate. Jinjin immediately reaches down to pet him. He
stops with his fingers just millimeters from the pug’s soft, white fur and
glances up at Ravi, who’s looking at them both with an incredibly indulgent
grin.

“Is it okay if I…?” he asks, suddenly shy.

“Knock yourself out, kid, Butt’ll sulk for hours if you
leave him hanging like this.”

Jinjin needs no further prompting and strokes a hand over
the dog’s head. Butt approves of the petting and flops over after a minute of
this, his large googly eyes clearly begging for chin scratches and belly rubs.
Jinjin is only too happy to oblige him.

Wonshik, meanwhile, is trying to keep himself composed in
the face of such overwhelming cuteness, and is failing utterly. He notices
Taekwoon emerging from the kitchen, presumably to investigate the commotion,
and wordlessly points in the direction of the couch where Jinjin is now
currently seated on the floor with Butt snuggled in his arms, the puppy’s tongue
lolling happily as he gives the boy a doggy kiss on the cheek. Taekwoon looks,
visibly melts, and whips out his phone to take a photo just as Jinjin looks up
and beams at them both, childlike delight written over every inch of his
bruised face. Wonshik actually feels
his heart skip a couple beats, because even banged up to hell and back, Park
Jinwoo rivals the puppy he’s cuddling in terms of sheer, unadulterated adorable. He resolves then and there to
help Jaewhan do whatever it takes to convince Hakyeon to let them keep this
kid.

 

——

 

“But N-hyuuuuuung, I wanted to see Jinwoo-yah off!” Ken whines
as Leo surreptitiously slips a packed lunch into his backpack and N fusses with
his clothing. “Can’t we just wait ten more minutes?”

“We’ll tell you what happens in great detail later,” N
reassures him before turning his attention to a resigned-looking Hongbin. “But
for now, you both need to go before
you end up missing the bus. It won’t do to be late.”

Ken wanders over to the couch, pouting theatrically and making
sure everyone knows how displeased he is before squatting down to be at eye
level with Jinjin, who’s still sitting on the floor with a lapful of a
contently snoozing Butt.. “Sorry we have to leave so soon,” he says
apologetically. “But y’know, theater duty calls. It was nice meeting you!”

“You too, hyung,” Jinjin smiles. He reaches behind him on
the couch for Chopper and holds him out to the taller man. “Thank you for
letting me borrow him for a bit. And for everything else, too.”

“Nah, hold onto him a little while longer, kid.” Ken pushes
the stuffed animal back into a startled Jinwoo’s arms with a small, knowing
smile. “I think you still need him more than I do. Besides, if I know N-hyung –
and I do – he’ll probably be by your dorm to snoop -” A swift neck chop makes him
quickly amend himself, “check up on
you within the week. You can return it then.”

“Well… alright. If you’re sure.” Jinjin hugs the plushie
back to his chest, trying to ignore the irrational surge of relief that goes
through him at the thought he can keep it for a little while longer.

“Very sure,” Ken nods decisively, straightening back up
and adjusting his backpack straps. “Alright, Hongbin, I think we should
probably go before N-hyung actually bores holes in the back of my skull with
his eyes.” He nimbly dodges another neck chop and grabs a startled Hongbin by
the arm, dragging him behind him out the door. Hongbin barely has time to give
Jinwoo a brief wave before the door slams behind the two of them.

“It’s like herding cats around here, I swear,” N mutters,
massaging his forehead. He turns back to Jinwoo. “Now come on, Jinjinnie, up
you get, time to grab some breakfast before your members get here.” As if on
cue, Leo wanders in with a steaming bowl in one hand and a mug of coffee in the
other. Jinwoo’s stomach rumbles hungrily at the sight, but… he glances down at
the sleeping puppy in his lap, torn.

“Here, I got him.” Ravi gently pulls Butt out of Jinjin’s
lap with a soft smile. “You sure won him over fast; he’s usually not this
forward with new people this quickly. He must really like you.” He takes the
groggy dog into his room, with a parting grin over his shoulder. Jinwoo grins
gratefully back and starts pulling himself up onto the couch… and immediately
drops back to the carpeted floor with a whimper, arms reflexively wrapping
around his sore, bruised torso. N is at his side in an instant, bodily lifting
him onto the couch while fretting at him to be more careful.

“Sorry, hyung,” Jinjin apologizes sheepishly as N gets
him situated comfortably on a makeshift backrest of pillows and cushions while
Leo hands over the mug of coffee and bowl containing rice, kimchi, and a few
assorted banchan. “I guess I’m still not used to… this.”

“What, feeling like you fell down a mountainside or being
mothered within an inch of your life?” Hyuk asks cheekily, appearing with a
stack of clothes in one hand and blithely ignoring the narrow-eyed glare N levels
in his general direction.

“Both, I guess,” Jinjin replies after a moment of
reflection and a long, content sip of coffee. He takes a closer look at the
clothes Hyuk holds and notices a familiar pair of red sweatpants. “Wait, are
those mine?”

“Yup, they just finished drying. You can change once you
finish eating.”

Jinjin nods readily and tries to finish his meal as fast
as he can, so as not to keep his hosts waiting. As he does, Hyuk sits next to
him and chats with him, and the next ten minutes pass in a blur until Jinjin
finds himself in the bathroom changing into his clean, dry clothes.  He opens the door and is about to limp out,
when then stops, having caught sight of himself in the mirror. More
specifically, he sees the bruises around his throat, and as he examines them
closer in the mirror, he winces, imagining what his members’ reactions to the
alarming sight would be. Instinctively, he tries to arrange his jacket over
them in a way that it covers the worst of it for a minute or two, without much
success. A hand nudges his shoulder gently, and Jinwoo turns to find Leo
standing in the doorway, wordlessly holding a scarf out to him.

“For…? Oh, but Leo-ssi, I couldn’t-”

“You can, since you’re only borrowing it,” Leo returns in
his quiet, airy voice. “You can return it along with Jaewhan’s stuffed animal,
since as he said, Hakyeonnie’s definitely going to be checking up on you in a
few days whether you like it or not.” Seeing the faint twinkle in the imposing
man’s dark eyes, Jinjin relents and accepts the soft, fuzzy scarf, feeling very
warm inside.  

“Jinwoo-yah, MJ just texted me,” N calls from the
kitchen. “They’ll be here in about fifteen minutes.”

“Okay, coming, hyung,” Jinjin calls back, laboriously
making his way back to the couch, every step sending new jolts of pain through
his battered body. As he takes a seat on the couch again and lifts Chopper to
sit in his lap, N comes over and hands him something.

“My wallet!” he exclaims, looking up at the older man in
surprise. “Where did you find it?”

“In the alley where I found you,” N explains while Jinwoo flips through the
wallet, breathing a sigh of relief at the sight of his ID.

“Thanks, hyung,” he says gratefully, pocketing it. “At
least I don’t have to replace my ID now.”

“You’re welcome,” N smiles, settling down on the couch
next to him. “Ready to see your members again?”

Jinjin nods eagerly. He almost aches with the need to see
his members again. But, at the same time, he also can’t help but feel somewhat
nervous, too, at the thought of what his members will think of all his bruises
and scrapes. Plus, he still feels terrible for making everyone worry so much.

N notices him nearly strangling Chopper, and shifts
closer, pressing his leg against his in a comforting show of solidarity. He
proceeds to ask Jinwoo a litany of questions about how his schooling is
currently going, which the boy is only too happy to answer, grateful for the
distracting stream of chatter. Hyuk and Ravi occasionally chime in with their
own questions or anecdotes, and even Leo occasionally makes a comment or two as
well.

The front doorbell rings. As one, every head in the room
swivels to face it. Jinjin scrambles to his feet, wincing and tugging at the
scarf tied around his neck distractedly. N places a gentle hand on his elbow to
steady him a bit as he sways slightly on his feet, following him up and situating
himself behind and to the side of him. Hyuk moves to get the door.

He opens it to reveal three young men standing on the
doorstep, two as tall as he is (no mean feat), and one significantly shorter,
all looking like kicked puppies to some extent or another.

“Hello sunbae-nim!” the short one says, dropping into a
deep bow, the other two boys following suit. “I’m MJ, and these are my
dongsaengs Cha Eunwoo and Sanha. We’ve come to take our wayward leader off your
hands.”

“Pleased to meet you,” Hyuk says, bowing back and
stepping backward to allow them entry into the apartment. “Come on in, your
leader’s been waiting for you.”

At that, the three boys eagerly enter and remove their
shoes. Sanha lights up the instant he catches sight of Jinjin standing by the
couch, and without hesitation flings himself across the room and into his
leader’s arms with a plaintive cry of “HYUNG!”

Jinjin nearly collapses from the sudden impact and added
weight of Sanha’s lanky body atop his battered one. N’s hand at his back
bolsters him, though, and he manages to gasp, “Hi, San. Miss me?”

“Don’t you ever
do that again, hyung!” Sanha demands, squeezing Jinjin tighter. “Ever!”

“Wasn’t planning on it,” Jinwoo wheezes wryly through the pain, patting
Sanha on the back.

“Make sure you don’t strangle the poor guy, Sanha,”
Eunwoo chides gently, coming over at a more sedate pace. He bows to N and the
others respectfully as Sanha jerks back as if Jinjin suddenly caught fire.

“Sorry! Sorry, Jinwoo-hyung, I didn’t hurt you, did I? Are
you okay?”

“I’m fine,” Jinwoo assures him, frowning slightly as he
sees the worry in all three of his members’ eyes as they take in his scrapes
and bruises and bandages. “It looks worse than it is.”

“I wouldn’t quite say that, Jinwoo-yah,” N cuts in. “It’s
going to take you a little while before I’d categorize your physical health as ‘fine.’
But he’ll be alright, boys.” He addresses the other three members warmly. “Like
I told MJ-yah ion the phone, nothing some rest and TLC won’t fix. I’m sure you’ll
take good care of him.”  

“Don’t worry, sunbae-nim, we will,” MJ says as the other
two nod enthusiastically. “In fact, I don’t think we’ll be letting him out of
our collective sight for at least
forty-eight hours,” he adds, with a meaningful look at the rapper.

“Oh boy. I’m in trouble, aren’t I,” Jinwoo says, only
half joking.

Eunwoo pats him on the shoulder. “You know it, hyung.”

“Right, I changed my mind, I’m staying with VIXX,” Jinwoo
says, turning to go hide behind N.

“Oh no, you don’t!” Sanha gloms onto his arm like a
starfish while Eunwoo catches his other arm, and the rest of the room breaks
into amused chuckles.

“Something wrong, sunbae?” MJ asks politely, after the
chuckles have died down and he notices Hyuk’s slightly pensive look.

“What? Oh, no, everything’s fine, I just…” He squints,
eyes flicking from one Astro member to another. “Aren’t there six of you?”

“Oh yes, Rocky and Moonbin are waiting in the van with
our manager,” MJ explains, chuckling, before his expression turns a bit
sheepish. “We thought it would be best if we didn’t crowd you or anything.”

“Well then, I guess we shouldn’t keep them waiting,” N
says, still smiling. “Have you got everything, Jinwoo?” he asks, as Eunwoo
loops one of Jinjin’s arms around his neck to help him out, and Sanha clings to
the arm holding Chopper.

“Yes, hyung, I got it,” Jinjin says. “And thank you
again, for everything.”

Hyung? MJ mouths
at him from where he’s standing beside Hyuk. Jinjin shoots him his patented shut up, Kim Myungjun look before turning his
attention back to N.

“It was our pleasure. I think I speak for everyone when I
say we enjoyed having you. I just wish it could have been under better
circumstances.” He pats Jinjin on the shoulder and leads the four younger idols
to the front door where they slip their shoes back on.

“Let me know if anything else develops, MJ-yah,” N calls
after the boys as they depart. “You’ve still got my number, right?”

“Yep, and will do, sunbae-nim . And thank you all again,”
MJ says, bowing once more.

As the door shuts behind the four
boys, silence falls in the apartment for a long moment. Finally, Wonshik speaks
up. “Okay, forget
just adopting Jinjin, we need to look into adopting every single one of them
ASAP.”

Reflection, Refraction – Chapter 1 – XILVerify – K-pop [Archive of Our Own]

Words: 8260 

Summary: Six abused dolls, owned by a narcissistic, vicious
witch, that have known nothing but a life of enslavement and pain, who
still manage to find purpose and meaning in the bonds they have forged
with each other.

Six sheltered boys, cared for by a zany, vivacious confectioner, that
happily spend their idyllic days managing a magical soda shop, about to
receive their first glimpse of humanity’s dark side.

Or: A comparison and contrast between two diametrically opposed
worlds and worldviews, what happens when said worlds and worldviews
collide, and the ways the concept of family is universal.

✶Χ✶Χ✶Χ✶Χ✶Χ✶Χ✶
We like things to be black or white, tall or
short, here or there. We like to consider two sides to every story.
Unfortunately, there aren’t always two sides. Sometimes there’s only
one; more often, there are multitudes. Many facets on the stone. Nooks
and crannies in abundance. Things are usually not either black or white,
but multicolored.

― Barry Leiba

Reflection, Refraction – Chapter 1 – XILVerify – K-pop [Archive of Our Own]

Temporary Shelter Chapter 4

Summary: Conversations are had, understandings are reached.

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19:37 Hulk Hyogi
Hey, hyung.
So, out of
idle curiosity, how’s your butt?

19:38 Wonchic
Hey, Sanghyuk.
And that
depends. Which butt are you talking about?

19:38 Hulk Hyogi
The one with a mind of
its own, of course. If you want to give an update on the other one, too,
though, be my guest.

19:38 Wonchic
Butt’s been a perfect
angel, thanks for asking.
I don’t know why I
didn’t start bringing him to the studio sooner, it’s really nice having company
while I work. You know, that doesn’t talk back and can’t distract me.

19:38 Hulk Hyogi
Oh, I’m sure you get
plenty distracted regardless. I know how you get around cute things.

19:39 Wonchic
I’m going to ignore
that last statement.
So, what’s been going
on at home base?

19: 39 Hulk Hyogi
Well, Leo-hyung made
kimchi jjigae for dinner
N-hyung picked up a
stray
Hongbin nearly heaved
his chair through the window again playing Overwatch
You know, the usual.

19:39 Wonchic
I could really go for
some kimchi jjigae right now. Did you save me any, perchance?

19:40 Hulk Hyogi
Well, we saved some,
but it’ll probably be gone by the time you get home, sorry to say. I know you
were planning on spending the night at the studio, and you’ll probably die a
horrible, tragic death if you try to come home in this weather anyway.

19:40 Wonchic
True. I guess I’ll
just starve, then. Such is my fate. ㅠㅠ

19:41 Hulk Hyogi
I’ll compose a
stirring ballad in your memory, hyung. VIXX will do its best to soldier on with
5 members. Or, you know, you could just eat the leftover kimbap Leo-hyung
packed for you, either or.

19:41 Wonchic
You’re such a
thoughtful and considerate dongsaeng.

19:41 Hulk Hyogi
I try.

19:45 Wonchic

Wait.
N-hyung picked up a
stray
???

19:45 Hulk Hyogi
GEEZ, WONSHIK-HYUNG,
TOOK YOU LONG ENOUGH.
I was wondering if I’d
have to actually spell it out for you in big sparkly neon letters!

19:46 Wonchic
I’m sorry, it’s been a
long day!
But for real, he
actually picked up a stray?
What is it, dog or
cat?
Are we keeping it?
Most importantly, is it cute?

19:47 Hulk Hyogi
In order:
Yeah, came home with
Astro’s leader Jinjin in his arms like they just stepped out of a drama or
something, shit was intense.
Neither, though I’d
probably peg him as a dog person if I had to guess
Alas, no, N-hyung
won’t let us. Watch this space, though, Jaewhan’s trying to wear him down and I
think he might be succeeding.
And here, see for
yourself:

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19:47 Wonchic
!!!!!!!!

19:48 Hulk Hyogi
IKR. N-hyung is
already completely smitten, and Ken-hyung’s not much better.

19:48 Wonchic
I don’t
blame them. Kid’s criminally adorable.
Why is he all beat up, though? 😦 Did he
get into a fight or something?

19:48 Hulk Hyogi
Got mugged. N-hyung
happened to be walking by with groceries as it happened, so he scared away the
attackers and took Jinjin home with him.

19:49 Wonchic
OMG you weren’t
kidding when you said it was like something out of a drama.
Though is that… one of your
shirts he’s wearing?

19:49 Hulk Hyogi

Well, given that his
original clothes are kinda currently soaked in mud, blood, and rainwater, yes. Yes,
it is.

19:50 Wonchic
Goodness. Well, nice to know I’m not blind yet, at least.

Also I feel like
Chopper is staring into my soul there. 0_0 Let me guess. Ken-hyung’s idea?

19:50 Hulk Hyogi
Do you know anyone
else who likes collecting One Piece merch around here?

19:51 Wonchic
You need to stop
spending so much time around Hongbin, Hyukkie, he’s a horrible influence on your sarcasm
levels.

19:51 Hulk Hyogi
Jealousy does not
become you, Kim Ravi. ( ̄へ ̄)

19:51 Wonchic
I’m not even
dignifying that with a response.

19:51 Hulk Hyogi
Didn’t you just?

19:52 Wonchic
Quiet you.
Astro… isn’t that the new
rookie group that just debuted this year, who did that dance cover of Voodoo
Doll last year that N-hyung made us all watch?

19:52 Hulk Hyogi
>:P
The very same.

19:53 Wonchic
Gosh, good thing he
stepped in then. That could have been… bad.

19:53 Hulk Hyogi
You’re telling me.
Poor guy seems kinda shaken up over it, though I don’t think it’s quite set in
all the way yet.

19:54 Wonchic
Right, that’s it, I’m
coming home right now, rain or no rain.

19:55 Hulk Hyogi
Your funeral, hyung. And
I mean that literally, there’ve been a bunch of car accidents this evening, and
the authorities are advising people stay off the roads if they can. Astro’s
picking Jinjin up tomorrow because of it.

19:55 Wonchic

So what you’re saying
is, I have to wait to meet him tomorrow.

19:56 Hulk Hyogi
Yup.

19:56 Wonchic
And I’ll have to come
early if I want to meet him before his group retrieves him.

19:56 Hulk Hyogi
Yup.

19:56 Wonchic
And I’m not getting
any kimchi jjigae.

19:56 Hulk Hyogi
Yup.

19:57 Wonchic
>:[
Life officially hates
me.

19:57 Hulk Hyogi
Yup.

19:57 Wonchic
You’re enjoying this,
aren’t you, you punk.

19:57 Hulk Hyogi
Little bit.

19:58 Wonchic
Brat.

19:58 Hulk Hyogi
Awwww, love you too,
hyung. ( ˘ ³˘)~♡

 

0000000

 

Jinjin slowly pries
his eyes open, feeling like lead weights are attached to his eyelids. He stares
up at an unfamiliar ceiling, and has a brief moment of panic before the events
of the day all come rushing back. Crap. He fell asleep, didn’t he.

“Hey, Jinwoo-ah.” Jinjin
turns to see N sitting on the floor at the foot of the couch, a laptop in his
lap. “How are you feeling?” The dancer sets aside his laptop and crawls over to
kneel beside the couch, placing a hand on the boy’s forehead.

Jinjin tries to focus
past how nice N’s cool hand feels against his hot skin and mentally takes
stock. “Like someone ran me over with a car.” Oh, he sounds like it, too, not good.

“That bad, huh?” N
winces sympathetically. “Do you need more painkillers?”

“If it wouldn’t be too
much trouble,” Jinjin croaks sheepishly. “How long was I out?”

“A few hours,” N replies, getting smoothly to his feet and rummaging around in
the medicine cabinet in the bathroom. “Are you hungry, by the way? I could get
you something, if you want.”

“Oh, I wouldn’t want
to impose-” His stomach cuts him off with a loud, rumbly growl, causing N to chuckle
and Jinjin to blush hotly.

“So that’s a yes,
then,” N says teasingly, bringing the bottle of pills back over to the couch
along with another cup of water. “And you’re not imposing in the slightest.
Besides, since we’ll be keeping you overnight, I don’t want to have to explain
to your members that we let you starve while you were in our care, now do I?”

“I’m staying
overnight?” Jinjin asks confusedly as N shoves the pill bottle and the cup into
his hands and then bustles into the kitchen.

“Yup. We don’t want to
risk something happening while the weather’s this bad. Which reminds me, I
called MJ while you were sleeping. He’ll be informing your manager about what
happened, and they’ll be by first thing in the morning to pick you up.”

“Oh.” Jinwoo blinks.
“How did you get his number?”

“I have my ways,” N
says mysteriously, eliciting a small grin from Jinjin. “Actually, I remembered
your group is quite close with KNK, and Leo is pretty good friends with Youjin,
so from there, it was easy to his number, and then get Myungjun’s.” He grins
and pops back into the kitchen and Jinjin hears him rummaging around in the
refrigerator and placing something into the microwave.

“Oh, Jinjin!” comes
Ken’s bright, strident voice, causing the boy to turn in the direction of the
bedrooms to see the vocalist standing in the doorframe of one, grinning from
ear to ear. “You’re awake! Guys, Jinjin’s awake!”

Heads begin appearing
in the doorways of the other rooms, and soon, the entirety of VIXX, sans Ravi,
is gathered in the living room, though the rapper notices they’ve taken great
pains to not crowd him. N must have said something to them earlier about it.
Jinjin has to fight down a smile at the thought, even as all the sudden
attention makes him squirm a little bit.

“Oh, Jinjin, I don’t
think you’ve had a chance to meet Leo or Hongbin yet,” N observes as he carries
in a bowl of something hot and steaming. “Taekwoonie, Hongbinnie, Park Jinwoo.
Jinwoo-ah, Jung Taekwoon and Lee Hongbin.”

“Pleased to meet you,
sunbaes,” Jinjin says, doing his best to come across as calm, cool, and in
control of the situation, even though he’s anything but. At least his voice
sounds less ragged now that he’s had something to drink.

“Pleased to meet you,
too,” Hongbin replies, flashing a friendly, dimpled grin.  

“Leo made the stew,” Hyuk
supplies helpfully as N helps him get propped up on the pillows so that he can
eat comfortably.

“It looks delicious,”
Jinjin tells the slender, quiet man leaning against the doorframe to the
kitchen sincerely. Leo doesn’t answer, but Jinwoo doesn’t miss the slight
dusting of pink that appears on his cheeks or his small, shy smile as he
glances away bashfully.

“Now, before we go any
further, it’s okay if you’d rather eat by yourself,” N assures him, giving his
pillow one last little pat. “I can send these punks straight back to their
rooms if you don’t want an audience.”

“No, it’s alright, hyung,” Jinjin speaks up quickly.
His members would kill him if he let this chance to get to know a senior idol
group better pass him by, and honestly, he wouldn’t blame them. “I don’t mind
at all, really.”

“Well then, don’t be
shy. Eat up, there’s plenty,” N encourages, and Jinjin does, unable to resist
the wonderful aroma of the stew wafting up from the bowl in his lap any longer.
He’s hungrier than he thought and devours the whole bowl in record time, too
hungry to pay much attention to how much swallowing hurts his poor, bruised,
scratchy throat. The impromptu soaking he got in the rain didn’t do any favors for
his cold, though the medicine N had given him earlier thankfully seems to have
curtailed the worst of it.

As he eats, Ken begins
telling a silly story about when the group decided to go to an amusement park
by themselves during Halloween season, and N and Ravi got super spooked when
they got pulled into the local haunted house attraction by the others. Hyuk supplements
the narrative with his own observations, with Leo and Hongbin chiming in
occasionally as N does his level best to defend his and the absent rapper’s
honor by trying to adequately communicate just how scary it really was,
honestly anyone with the proper sense
would have been terrified, it’s not their fault whatsoever, and Jinjin nearly
chokes on a piece of cabbage, he’s laughing so hard.

After he’s done with his stew, it doesn’t take more than ten
seconds for N to quickly whisk his dirty dishes away into the kitchen while the
conversation turns to the latest, hottest drama currently airing on TV. Hyuk
and Hongbin get into a good-natured if heated argument about which male lead
the main heroine should end up with. Jinjin ends up siding with Hyuk and Ken
sides with Hongbin, and the living room briefly turns into an imitation of a
courtroom drama. The two ‘90 liners wisely choose to abstain from voting, and share
a bag of tteokbokki crackers between them as they look back and forth between
the debating parties like they’re watching a tennis match.

Even though Jinjin does his absolute level best to keep
up with the action, eating must have made him drowsy again, because his eyes
keep trying to close despite his best efforts to keep them open. N and Leo eventually
notice even though he tries to hide it, and after he tries to discretely smother
his third yawn behind his arm, N claps his hands and sits up straight, drawing
everyone’s attention.

“Alright, everyone!” he says brightly. “Sorry to break
this lively discussion up, but I know for a fact that Hongbin and Jaehwan have
early morning schedules tomorrow, so how about we all turn in and get some rest?”

“Awww, N-hyung!” Ken
and Hyuk pipe up in dismay at the same time.

“No ifs, ands, or
buts, kids, off you go,” N flaps his hands at the rest of them in a shooing
motion as Leo starts prodding everyone into movement and herding them to their
rooms.

“Alright, fine, we’ll
call it a draw,” Hongbin concedes reluctantly as he disappears into his room.
“We’ll see who’s right when the next episode comes out.”

“And then you’ll owe
me a box of choco pies, just like we discussed,” Hyuk returns without missing a
beat.

“Only in your sad,
small dreams, Han Sanghyuk. Night, hyungs, Jinjin.” Hongbin’s door shuts with a
brisk click.

“He always has to have
the last word,” Hyuk sniffs, before turning to Jinjin and grinning. “Well, that
was fun! We should do that again sometime. You’re a good debate partner, you
know.”

“I’d like that,
hyung,” Jinjin smiles, feeling something warm and contented spread throughout his
chest at the praise as Hyuk makes a hasty retreat into his room after receiving
a very pointed look from N.

“Night, Jinwoo-ah!”
Ken calls cheerfully, waving vigorously from where he’s being gently shoved
into his room by Leo.

“Night, Ken-hyung,”
Jinjin waves back as N perches on the edge of the couch next to him and begins
to check over his bandages.

“Maknaes, am I right?” N asks teasingly as they’re
finally left alone, seeming satisfied with how Jinwoo’s dressings are holding
up. The rapper could recognize that tone anywhere, full of exasperation and
affection, and he realizes N is speaking with him leader to leader, not as a
hyung to a dongsaeng.

“Tell me about it,” Jinwoo replies with a half grin half grimace as the cut under his hairline gives a small throb when N’s fingers
brush against the bandage covering it. “How have you managed to wrangle them
for over four years? And here I thought my members were a handful.”

“It’s a constant uphill battle,” N chuckles. “It has its
own rewards, though.”

Jinjin smiles, fully this time. “I know what you mean.” He
chews the inside of his cheek for a moment before venturing timidly, “What… what’s
it like?”

At N’s questioning look, he adds, “Being leader to a
group for so long, I mean? How do you… stand it?” How do you stand the constant
scrutiny, the endless hours in meetings with the managers and higher-ups, having
to bear the burdens of five other people on top of your own, the jabs and
slings from antis and the cutthroat media, the sasaengs who believe they are
entitled to more than you’re willing to give, the endless hours of practice and
stress and travel, comeback after comeback after comeback, year after year
after year?

N sits and processes the sudden question thoughtfully.
Finally, “It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. But then, I knew it would
be hard, from the first moment I knew I wanted to become an idol. But my
members, our Starlights… they make it all worth it. I wouldn’t trade my time
with them for anything.”

“Yeah, I feel the same way about my members and Arohas. I
feel so grateful for everything they’ve given me, and I want to go with them as
far as I can.” Jinjin looks down at his lap, at a sudden, frustrating loss for
words, wondering if he should even be admitting this kind of weakness in front
of someone he just met and whose respect he desperately wishes to earn. “I… it’s…
it’s just…”

“I know.” Jinjin feels a gentle hand rest on his head and
lightly ruffle his hair once before withdrawing. “It’s heavy. The burden of
being a leader. You feel like they can’t see you at your very worst, that you
have to take care of all the big things on your own, or else you’ll be failing
them, failing your fans, failing everyone who ever believed in you. Believe me,
I know.”

Jinjin blinks, looking up in surprise and more than a
little relief. N gets it. He’s never put
it into those exact terms before, but… “Yeah… pretty much. I mean… they voted
me to be the leader, so I know they all want me to be in that position, it’s
just… hard sometimes. All that responsibility. And it’s not their job to worry
about it, it’s mine, because they have enough to worry about, you know? I can’t
burden them with more. Well, except for MJ-hyung. I can’t really hide much from
him. I do, sometimes, and at the end of the day, it’s my responsibility to make
sure everything that needs to be done gets done, but he always seems to know
when it’s getting too much for me. I don’t know what I’d do without him,
honestly.”

N nods with a small, rueful smile. “Having someone older
than you to help ease the burden of leadership is a great help, I’m sure.” Jinjin
is painfully reminded that N’s never really had that. Sure, he has Leo, who he’s sure does
a lot to assist N whenever possible… but having a same-aged friend isn’t
exactly the same as having a hyung, someone who can take the responsibility off
your shoulders for a short while, someone who is older, wiser, more
experienced, and hopefully has more answers than you. His respect for the older
man rises a couple more notches.

“It is, but it’s still hard. Even MJ-hyung doesn’t have
all the answers, sometimes.” He glances over at N. “But you’ve been in the business
for four years. You’re the oldest. You had to figure it all out on your own. How
did you do it?”

N sighs. “Like I said, it was… difficult at first.
Especially those first couple years after debut. It was amazing, too, don’t get
me wrong, but there also were times I felt… very alone. Like the weight of
being the one in charge was slowly crushing me.”

“But you don’t feel that way anymore, right? What
changed?”

“Me,” N answers with another small, lopsided smile. “Or
rather, my view of my members. I’d always been hesitant about going to them
with any of my problems, especially the ones related to my responsibilities as
leader. I always thought… that if I couldn’t handle them on my own, then I was
failing them. Failing myself. That their trust in me would be misplaced and
that I wasn’t worthy of the title of leader. I was young and inexperienced and
I had very little practice being the oldest, let alone the oldest of a group of
five other people that all depended on me to make the important decisions that
could drastically affect their careers.”

Jinjin nods in sympathy. He knows that feeling very well.

N continues. “But as I got older and got to know my
members better, I realized that instead of feeling like I failed them if I came
to them with my problems, they were actually just worried about me and wanted
me to feel like I could trust them with my problems. For me to give some of my
burden away so they could help me carry it. Instead of driving them away, it
turned out that sharing my problems and my feelings with them actually made us
all closer. Knowing that they have my back just as much as I have theirs, that
we’re all in this together equally… it gives me the strength to keep going.

He glances at Jinwoo, still smiling slightly. “Bottom
line, if you have goodhearted members – and I’m pretty confident that you do – they’ll
want to help you when you can’t handle everything yourself or just need to
talk. Being there for your members is important, but so is letting them be
there for you, too. I just hope you don’t take as long as I did to figure that
out.”

Jinjin nods again slowly, touched and rather humbled that
the older idol is confiding in him so readily like this. They only just met,
yet Jinjin feels as comfortable around him as if he’s known him for months. “I’ll
do my best, hyung.”

“Glad to hear it,” N grins, patting the boy on the
shoulder and standing up from the couch. “So now that I’m done sounding like an
ajusshi for the day, I’ll leave the painkillers with you just in case you need
more during the night, and I’ll be in my room if you need anything. Do you want
to give your members a call before bed?”

Jinjin perks up immediately at the offer, and an
affirmative is on the tip of his tongue before he stops, considering. He
desperately wants to see his members’ faces again, to hear their voices, for
life to return to some semblance of normalcy, but… he’d caught a glimpse of
himself in the bathroom mirror earlier, and, as Hyuk so eloquently put it, he
does indeed look like he got mobbed by a horde of rabid baseball bats. He
doesn’t want his members to see him like this just yet, or to worry more than
they already are.

So, reluctantly, he shakes his head. “No, not tonight.
Thanks for offering, though.”

N seems to have
followed his train of thought and gives him a knowing look before gathering up
his laptop and turning out the lights. “Alright then. Have a good rest.”

“You too, hyung.”

Once N disappears into
his room, leaving his door cracked open an inch, Jinjin slowly, painfully
lies back down, his battered muscles silently groaning with every movement. He
snuggles into the cool material of his pillowcase with a soft sigh and pulls
the blanket up to his nose, squeezing his borrowed plushie close to his chest.
He’d never admit it, but having something soft and squishy to cuddle with is
actually quite comforting. He can see why Ken recommended it.

He’s much too tired to
muse on the events of the day for much longer, though, and within minutes, the
boy is fast asleep once again.

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A/N: I based N and Jinjin’s
conversation in this chapter a number of observations I’ve made based on
comments and interviews done earlier in VIXX’s career, particularly these two
quotes from Ravi concerning N, the first of which is from 2014, the second from three
years later: 

“I wish he would
loosen a bit and be a little more comfortable. Because he has to do a lot of
work, he can’t really grasp his confidence in front of us either. So, I wish he
could be a little more relaxed.” (2014)
 

“N-hyung used to bear everything alone and
settle things on his own in the past, but now he has opened his heart more, and
rather than shutting himself in, he now shares a lot with us and shares his
feelings with us, so I’m less worried about him.” (2017)

This fic is set mid-2016, but I like to think that N
started opening up more to the other members considerably prior to Ravi giving that
quote, even though it’s mere speculation on my part.  

Temporary Shelter Chapter 3

Summary: Astro finally gets the news about their leader. Some take it better than others.

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“I feel like a drowned
rat,” MJ grumbles as he and Eunwoo squelch up the stairs, groceries in hand.

“Oh, stop moaning,
hyung,” the younger boy returns mildly, tucking a cheap, dripping umbrella
under his arm. “I told you not to go jump in the pothole, but…”

“It looked like a puddle! What’s the point of rain if you can’t jump in
puddles? I was deceived!”

“You were acting like a five year old, and as
a result you ended up in two feet of water and nearly drowned the bok choy and
carrots along with yourself. You’re lucky it wasn’t an open manhole cover.”

MJ is saved from
having to reply by them finally reaching their apartment. He punches in the
code for the door and opens it.

“Finally!” comes
Sanha’s strident crow as the two dripping young men enter the apartment.
“Bin-hyung! Minhyuk-hyung! The hyungs are finally back!” He turns back to the
two of them and grins like the proverbial cat that got the canary.

“I hope you like doing
laundry, hyung,” he singsongs teasingly, rocking back and forth on the balls of
his feet.

“What are you talking
about?” MJ asks, just slightly peevishly as he and Dongmin begin shucking off
their soaked coats. “We’re clearly the winners here.”

“Oh yeah, I can definitely
see that, hyung. Out of curiosity, did you actively
go stand in a storm drain, or…?”

“Why don’t you c’mere
and find out, brat.” 

“Meep! Binnie, save
me!” Sanha dances out of the way as MJ tries to wrestle him into a soggy
headlock, and takes shelter behind Moonbin, who’s emerged from his room along
with Minhyuk.

“Don’t kill the
maknae, MJ-hyung, we still need him,” Bin says amusedly. “What’s this I hear
about you being the winners, though? Clearly we got here before you.”

“But Jinjin-hyung beat
you home, so technically, we won,” Eunwoo says, before stopping and raising one
eyebrow. “Jinjin… is home, right?” The maknae line glances at each other in
confusion.

“No…? Bin finally says
slowly. “Why would he be? Wait…” He narrows his eyes suspiciously. “Wait, don’t
tell me you sent him home early so you’d get home first!” MJ and Eunwoo
carefully look everywhere but at their dongsaengs.

“Hyungs!” Sanha gasps.
“That’s cheating!”

“Well, technically-” Rocky and MJ begin at the
exact same time.

“We can argue
semantics later,” Eunwoo interjects. “Bin, you’re sure Jinwoo hasn’t been
here?”

“Pretty sure we would
have noticed him by now, hyung,” Moonbin replies drily.

“Where’s Jinjin-hyung,
then, if he’s not here?” Sanha asks, a note of worry starting to creep into his
tone. “Is he okay?”

“I’m sure he’s fine,
kid,” MJ hastens to soothe his youngest dongsaeng. “You know Jinjin. He
probably just got stuck in traffic or stopped for a snack.” Despite his
assurances, MJ can’t help the tendril of worry that begins to worm its way into
the back of his own mind. Where is
the rapper, anyway? Even though he’d gamely kept up with the group earlier, MJ
could tell the younger boy had been in obvious need of a nap and maybe a couple
more cold pills, which was part of the reason why he’d offered to let him go
home early in the first place. He should have come right home. It’s odd that he
still isn’t back.

“In fact, here, let me
call him real quick to see what’s taking him so long.” He digs his phone out of
his pocket and dials the leader’s number, tapping his foot impatiently against
the floor. Of all the times to live up to his nickname of “the slow rapper,”
seriously…

MJ’s backpack starts
buzzing. Dongmin digs through one of the pockets and pulls out… Jinwoo’s phone,
the caller ID clearly reading “MJ-Hyung.” The two glance at each other in
dismay, and then Myungjun facepalms dramatically amid the maknaes’ snickering.

“Um, MJ-hyung?”
Minhyuk speaks up. “Not to interrupt the moment, but you’re kind of creating
your own lake in the middle of the floor.” Myungjun looks down to see that a
growing puddle of dirty water is indeed growing underneath his soaked lower
half.

“Go change, hyung,”
Dongmin grins. “I’ll compare hauls with the maknaes and let you know how it
goes.”

 

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“Face it, hyung, you
lost. Fair and square.”

“Oh, come on! We got
the bag of special edition shrimp chips, that counts for three whole extra
items!”

“Yeah, but look, we
got the red bean jellies, which also counts for three whole extra items. We
tied. And since we got home first…”

“Hehe, you’ll be doing
my laundry for the next three days, MJ-hyung! I’ll be sure to leave extra, just
for you~”

“Dongmin-ah, tell me
honestly. How unlikely do you think it is that Fantagio would be down for
forming a new, three-man idol group anytime soon?” 

“Extremely. Besides,
it won’t really look good for our image if word gets out that Astro broke up
because of a scavenger hunt.”

“Mmm, thought so. Next
best thing?”

“Next best thing.”

“Um… hyungs? What are
you…?”

“ATTACK!”

 

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About thirty minutes
after the pillows and cushions are all returned to their proper places on beds
and couches and the screams and war cries have died down, Dongmin sticks his
head into the larger of the apartment’s two bedrooms, where MJ is lying on his
bed, watching a drama his phone. “Do you… do you think we should call
manager-hyung?” he says quietly so that the maknaes – who are currently playing
a synchronized game on their phones in the living room – can’t hear. “Just in
case?”

MJ thinks for a
moment, worry starting to gnaw at him in earnest. Jinjin still hasn’t come
home, then. “We’ll give him fifteen more minutes,” he finally answers, just as
quietly. “If he’s not back, or at least called us by then, then yeah, I think
we should let the manager know.”

Dongmin nods and ducks
out of the room, while Myungjun turns his attention back to his phone. Or tries
to, anyway. He’s having a hard time focusing. It’s not like him to worry
overmuch (he prefers to leave the title of Astro’s resident fussbudgets to
Jinjin and Eunwoo, thanks), but he can’t seem to shake the feeling of impending
doom that hit him ever since Eunwoo pulled their leader’s phone out of the
backpack. He knows it’s probably nothing; like he told Sanha earlier, Jinjin is
stuck in traffic or something, and they’ll all have a good laugh about this
later after he and Eunwoo chew him out for making them lose the game before
bundling him into bed to take a nice, long nap, so why does he still feel so…
tense? It’s weird. It’s weird and he doesn’t like it.

He’s just about to
clamber off his bunk to go find one of the younger kids to play with to take
his mind off things when his phone starts to buzz. He nearly drops it in his
haste to see who’s calling, and his heart sinks when he sees an unknown number
instead of Jinjin’s. Stupid, his mind
reminds him, Jinjin’s phone is on his bed,
you dummy, of course he wouldn’t be the one calling you
. He answers it
anyway. Jinjin could have borrowed someone else’s phone to call him, after all.

“Hello?”

“Is this MJ? Kim
Myungjun?” a delicate, mellow voice asks. It’s maddeningly familiar, but MJ
can’t quite place it. And they’d used his stage name to refer to him. Someone
in the idol industry, perhaps?

“Yes?” he
answers confusedly. “May I ask who’s calling?”

“Cha
Hakyeon.” MJ swears his heart skips two whole beats once his mind places a face
with the words. “Or VIXX’s leader N, if you prefer.”

“Oh! Sunbae-nim!” MJ sits
bolt upright in his bed and just misses cracking his skull on the ceiling by about
half a centimeter. He folds into a quick bow on instinct before remembering
that the older man can’t see him. “To what do I owe the, er, pleasure?” Oh, if
only he wasn’t currently distracted with worrying about Jinwoo, he can’t even
freak out properly about a sunbae idol calling him up out of the blue…

“Just ‘hyung,’ is
fine, MJ. And I apologize for calling so suddenly, but it’s about Jinjin.”

MJ snaps to attention
immediately. “Jinjin? Wait, you know what happened to him, sunb- hyung? Is he
okay? Is he alright? Where is he? Is -”

“Breathe, MJ, calm
down,” comes N’s faintly amused voice from the other line as the rest of the
boys cluster around next to his bunk, drawn by the sound of their leader’s
name. “Before I say anything else, let me stress that Jinjin is perfectly safe.
He’s sleeping on my living room couch at this exact moment, as a matter of
fact. But,” N’s voice turns serious, “earlier today, I found him getting mugged
a few blocks from our apartment building.”

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“Mugged?” Myungjun
says faintly into the receiver as the bottom drops out of his stomach. A
visible wave of panic ripples through the rest of the members. Sanha gasps and clutches
Dongmin’s arm tightly, eyes reflexively welling up with tears, while Bin
instinctively grabs Minhyuk’s hand and squeezes as if his life depended on it. “How…
how bad…?”

“From what I can tell,
he’ll be perfectly fine in a week or two, Myungjun-ah, don’t worry,” N hastens
to assure him. “It’s just some cuts and scrapes and bruises, nothing some rest
won’t fix, but all the same, he should probably take it easy for a few days
just in case.”

“Duly noted,” MJ replies, feeling slightly giddy from sheer relief. “I’ll call
our manager and we’ll be over as soon as we can to pick him up-”

“Ah, about that,” N
interjects. “We – that is, the other members and I – were discussing the
matter, and we think it would be safer for all parties involved if you waited
until morning to pick him up because of the weather. There have already been a
number of car accidents reported today since the rain started, and I don’t want
to risk you all getting into a car accident as well. It would probably be best
for Jinjin if he was able to rest for a while without having to travel, too.”

Myungjun’s first
instinct is to argue, to insist they get Jinwoo back as fast as humanly
possible, but as much as he wants (needs) to see Jinjin again, the practical
part of him knows the elder idol is right. They have nothing to lose by letting
Jinwoo stay overnight with VIXX (goodness, isn’t that a thought), but
everything to lose by potentially getting into an accident because of the
weather. “Well… if you’re sure it won’t be a bother, hyung…”

“Absolutely no trouble
at all,” N replies firmly, and Myungjun can hear the smile in his voice, laced
with a special kind of sympathetic warmth that tells the younger man that the
older idol knows very well what it’s like to feel the same worry and panic
about his dongaengs that’s churning in Myungjun’s gut right now. “I’ll text you
our address, and you can come over in the morning to get your leader. If
there’s anything else you need, I’m just a phone call away, alright?”

“Thank you, hyung.” MJ
suddenly feels like crying, and he has to bite the inside of his cheek to keep
the tears at bay. Not in front of the members, and certainly not in front of N. Everyone needs him to be strong right
now. “Just… really, thank you. For looking out for our Jinjinnie like this.”

“Any half decent
person would have done the same thing,” N replies, the warm smile still evident
in his tone. “I’m just happy we could help. Jinjin’s a special kid.”

MJ has to smile at
that, a curl of warmth thawing a little of icy chill that’s taken up residence
in his insides. “That he is.”

They exchange
perfunctory farewells, and the second MJ removes the phone from his ear, he’s
immediately accosted by four very worried boys.

“Jinjin-hyung was
mugged?” Sanha blurts out, beating the other three to the punch. He’s still clutching
a longsuffering Dongmin’s arm in a white-knuckled death grip. “Is he alright is
he okay who was that on the phone do we need to go get him what- MMF!”

“I think,” Dongmin
says firmly, as he keeps his hand pressed over Sanha’s mouth, “we should all
keep our mouths shut for the next thirty seconds and let MJ-hyung explain
what’s going on.”

“Good plan,” Bin
mutters while Minhyuk nods mutely, the two younger boys still holding each
others’ hands tightly.

Myungjun climbs down
from his bunk, herds them all into the living room, and explains the situation
as clearly as he can while trying his best to ignore the ever-growing sense of
guilt that’s replacing the panic he’d felt earlier now that he knows Jinjin
will be alright. He was the one who suggested Jinwoo go home early. He’d still
be with them safe and sound if Myungjun just hadn’t opened his big mouth- okay, now is not the time for
self-recrimination, Kim Myungjun, focus. Focus for the kids, you can kick
yourself all you want later.

The younger boys still
seem quite worried by the end of his brief summary, but they do seem to be
breathing a little easier now that they’ve heard the whole story, or what
little MJ knows of it.

After a couple moments
have passed while everyone tries to process what was just related to them,
Moonbin speaks up. “…You do realize that this means Jinwoo-hyung’s basically
having a sleepover with VIXX right now, right?” The rest of them have to smile
a little at the thought.

“Figures that it’d
take an incident like this to get us properly introduced to them,” Dongmin
replies with a small but genuine grin. “We’ll have to grill him for details
once he gets back.”

“I still wish he was
with us instead, though,” Sanha says quietly.

“We all do, San, but
there’s no point in sitting around speculating,” Rocky, ever the sensible one,
says, ruffling the younger boy’s hair comfortingly. “Dinner still needs to be
made. You want to come help me with the noodles?” He holds out his hand to Sanha
and smiles.

“Okay.” Sanha gamely
tries to return the smile, though it ends up being more of a wobbly grimace, and
takes Rocky’s hand, allowing himself to be pulled in the direction of the
kitchen.

Moonbin eyes flick
back and forth between his two hyungs for a couple seconds before he follows the
two youngest members. “I’ll help you with the table, Minhyuk. Sanha no, those
aren’t noodles those are potato chips don’t
–!”

Amid the sudden commotion
in the kitchen (a common occurrence in the Astro dorm when Sanha is allowed anywhere
near the food preparation process; Rocky’s handling it with practiced ease),
Myungjun decides he shouldn’t put off calling their manager any longer, and
decides to step out into the hall to get a little peace and quiet while he does
so. Before he can take more than a step, However, Dongmin’s grabbed his arm and
bodily pulled him into his and Moonbin’s room, closing the door behind them.

“Dongminnie, what-”

“I know what you’re
thinking, and it’s not your fault, hyung,”
Eunwoo says, quietly but earnestly. “So derail that train of thought right now
before it goes any further. Jinwoo-hyung isn’t here to say it, so I’ll say it
for him. And don’t lie to yourself, you know that’s what he’d say to you right
now if he could.”

“It doesn’t matter what he’d say, Dongmin,” Myungjun
retorts fiercely, all traces of his usual happy virus persona buried under the
weight of the current situation. “The fact of the matter is, it was my idea to
send him home early, I didn’t make sure he had his phone so he could keep in
touch, and then something like this
happens. I’m the oldest, and since, as you pointed out, Jinwoo isn’t here right
now, even if this isn’t my fault, it’s still my responsibility.”

The younger boy’s eyes
widen, clearly taken aback by the vehemence in the vocalist’s tone, and
Myungjun immediately softens. “I know you’re just trying to make me feel
better, Dongmin. And I appreciate it, I do. I just… I’m the one who’s supposed
to look out for him, you know?”
Because Jinwoo may be the leader of Astro, but Myungjun is the oldest; when
things become too much for Jinwoo to handle, Myungjun is the one he confides
in, the only one he allows to see his breakdowns when the burden of being the
leader is just too much for him to bear alone. And it’s killing Myungjun inside
that he’s unable to do anything for his best friend right now other than sit here
in this small apartment and worry.

By the look in
Dongmin’s eyes, he seems to understand. “I know, hyung. I know. Accidents just
happen, sometimes. Just…” Dongmin places a hand on his shoulder and squeezes,
“make sure you’re not blaming yourself, alright?”

Kind of too late for
that, honestly. “Yeah, sure.”

“Because if you are, then you should be blaming me,
too,” Dongmin continues, which stops Myungjun cold. “I took your side, you
know. I could have protested and Jinjin and I would have outruled you, and he
would have stayed. But I thought you had a good idea, and Jinwoo needed to go
home and get some rest anyway. I’m as much to blame as you, if you want to play
that game.”

Myungjun’s heart
wrenches painfully as the taller boy hangs his head, unshed tears welling up in
his eyes. “Dongmin… you’re not… I don’t…” 

“Exactly,” Dongmin
says, smiling tightly. “If you’re not going to blame me, then don’t blame
yourself. Deal?”

MJ huffs a small laugh
and closes the small gap between them, wrapping his arms around the younger
boy’s torso. It’s hard to remember sometimes that Dongmin is actually three
years his junior. “How did you get so smart, kid?”

“It’s a talent.” MJ
can hear the smile in the other’s voice as he returns the hug, sniffling a
little. “Also self-preservation. Someone
has to be the mature voice of reason around here, might as well be me.”

“Brat,” Myungjun says
with infinite fondness, leaning back and cuffing him gently upside the head.
“You’re lucky I’m such a laidback and easygoing hyung.”

“I know,” Dongmin
replies, equally as fond. “We’re all lucky to have you as the oldest,
MJ-hyung.”

“You’ve turned
sentimental in your old age, Dongminnie,” Myungjun huffs teasingly, to cover
the warm happiness bubbling up inside him at the affectionate words of
affirmation.

“If I’m old, what does
that make you? Prehistoric?”

“Yah, get outta here
before I kick your ass, insolent punk!”

“But this is my room-”

“Out!” Myungjun waves
the hand holding his phone imperiously at the door, his loud giggles probably
completely undermining the stern image he’s going for.

“Alright, alright, I’m
going, I’m going,” Dongmin laughs, making a tactical retreat. “I’d better go
out and help make sure Sanha doesn’t burn the kitchen down anyway.”

“You do that,” MJ
sniffs theatrically, making a show of turning his attention back to his phone.
He can’t help the grin that spreads across his face once the door closes behind
the other vocalist. He then notices that N recently sent him a text with the
directions to VIXX’s apartment, and his grin fades. He scrolls through his list
of contacts, and selects one, pressing the phone to his ear with a silent sigh.

“Manager-hyung? It’s
me, MJ. Doing okay, thanks. Listen, we have… a bit of a situation, here…”